My mind is drawing a blank today. I keep eating and making myself sick. Why does anybody do what they do? People say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I eat and expect it to not hurt, not to come back up, not to throw me into a vicious cycle. There was a time I could just not put food in my mouth, at that point I was having heart palpitations and throwing up blood and I set my mind to the fact that whatever bite of food, whatever tasty morsel was not worth my life. Food is everywhere and we are supposed to eat several times a day, but I am not supposed to have any more than 2 ounces every 2 hours and even that won't stay down. I keep thinking I will do better tomorrow but that is never the case. I am so drained from today so I guess I will write again tomorrow. I need to rest.
Lots of Love
And Laughter,
Betsy
Greetings Betsy. One of my prayers for you is that by this time next week you'll be able to eat without getting sick, and that your pain will be under control.
ReplyDeleteI still haven't found you another can of "sticks" yet, but will go door-to-door after work today and see if I can find some for you to take with you next week.
I hope you have a good day today. Stay positive and try not to worry or stress. Everything is going to be just fine.
- Doug -