My Reason

My sweet Elijah has used every wish, every prayer, every day to ask for my complete healing. I knew in 2008 because God told me when I first started getting really sick that things were going to get much worse but He would heal me only when His timing is right and He receives the glory for my healing. For those of you that do not know, I have Idiopathic Gastroparesis caused by a genetic condition known as Autonomic Dysfunction. I am currently on IV nutrition through a central line and on several medications. I had a gastric pacer implanted in 2010 to alleviate some of my symptoms and it worked well for 6 months but my nerves quit responding and I finally had it removed this January. In other words it did get much worse. I start this blog now because I know God will not let my baby's faith die.

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

In the midst of the madness

     I know this is a crazy time of the year for all of us. So much to be done, so little time. I hate all the social settings where you feel like you have to eat even though you know what it's going to do to you. There's always the option to not eat, but that just makes people feel uncomfortable about eating in front of you. I used to do so much for Christmas with my kids. We made my famous "Heavens To Betsy's Gourmet cookies." we made stockings for all of our friends and family and on top of the cookies we made all kinds of candy, from peanut butter balls to coconut balls, toffee, fudge, turtles, candied pecans, For a while the kids tried to keep it going, but they did not know how much went into it and how worn out they would be. I did all the main stuff and when I stopped they got overwhelmed so we changed the traditions. We stopped running all over creation on Christmas day and decided to let the kids really enjoy their Christmas. Everyone knows if anyone wants to come here, they are more than welcome, but we try to spread out family gatherings. These days it seems to take so little to knock me on my keister. With my dad in the hospital, that just magnifies things.
     But as I was saying in my title, in the midst of the madness tomorrow My sweet, amazing, wonderful, handsome gentleman Clint and I will be married 20 years. I seem to have been sick more of those years than not and it has really taken its toll on our whole family.
     Don't get me wrong, I would no change one moment of my life, from the heartbreak, sorrow, loneliness and now the illness have all come together to make me the woman I am today. The person God created me to be, and eventually the voice for the voiceless and change the world one moment at a time. Thank you all for lifting our family up in prayer, know that we feel the effects of your prayer.
     I am going to try to rest a bit now, wish me luck!

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Doctor

I am sorry I have been way to sick to write in here or do just about anything. My symptoms hit me like a freight train. No matter what medicine I take, no matter how much I cannot control my nausea or my severe pain and migraine. I am doing a lot of sleeping just to try to not feel. But that really doesn't work even asleep my pain is still there. I am so weak and shaking in pain and weakness. I am ready to be better