Day 7

I am so ready to get to New Orleans but I don't want to get my hopes up too high because I have been let down so many times. I really need to get past this cycle I put food down and it never stays I stay weak and in pain. It is time to get past this even though I have had much worse weeks. My children want their mommy back, my husband wants his wife back, and I want my life back. People see me and say, you look so great, and I have a hard time responding to that because I sure as heck don't feel great. Normally I thank them and say by Gods will I am getting better every day. I hate this disease with a passion and I wonder if I will ever have a good relationship with food once I am healed. Now I don't eat because I know how bad it will make me feel or if I do eat, I eat whatever and however much I want because I know it is coming back up no matter what. I have pushed it down and taken meds and forced it to stay down but after a day or two it always comes back up and believe me it is so much worse then. Clint hopes to remodel our home and open our kitchen and finally have a second bathroom. With this disease and a family of 5, 1 tiny bathroom is quite a challenge, but if is the hand we were dealt and we have counted it all blessing. Not many people can say they have a house note of only $250.00. God provides our every need and always so much more. I still don't have a reservation for New Orleans which is weird because I normally Priceline check out the hotel rates directly and ask for patient discounts but I just don't have the energy. It is always okay to post comments on here if you have something you want to say and as always keep the faith of a child!
Lots of Love
And Laughter,
Betsy