My Reason

My sweet Elijah has used every wish, every prayer, every day to ask for my complete healing. I knew in 2008 because God told me when I first started getting really sick that things were going to get much worse but He would heal me only when His timing is right and He receives the glory for my healing. For those of you that do not know, I have Idiopathic Gastroparesis caused by a genetic condition known as Autonomic Dysfunction. I am currently on IV nutrition through a central line and on several medications. I had a gastric pacer implanted in 2010 to alleviate some of my symptoms and it worked well for 6 months but my nerves quit responding and I finally had it removed this January. In other words it did get much worse. I start this blog now because I know God will not let my baby's faith die.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Day 11

I am excited that things are progressing so quickly but at the same time a bit on edge. I know God is with me  and He will provide for our expenses, but most of all I know He will heal me. I try not to let people see me when I am at my worst because it is hard for me to put someone in that position. It scares me so I can imagine how helpless my family or anyone who happens around at the time must feel. My pain seems to be ever increasing but I try not to take much pain meds because I know my surgery is coming quickly and I want the medication to work then. I have a private sadness in my heart that I have shared only with my husband and a very few close personal friends. I normally have so much to say and this evening I just feel so tired. I need to rest!

Lots of Love
And Laughter,
Betsy



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