Day 197 part 2

I know how hard it gets when you get discouraged and weary. There are no words anyone can say and nothing anyone can do when things begin to seem hopeless. I have been at war with my body for so long at one point when throwing up caused my heart to start having issues I dug my heels in and decided no meal is worth my life but after so long of knowing true hunger I eat anyway and immediately regret it and wonder why I let myself torture my body but you can't beat yourself up. After losing my 6 yr old brother at age 4 I learned how true the verse that God will not allow you more than you can bear. I just wanted to share that because people don't like to talk about their weakness but to be weak is to be human and I hope it can give encouragement to know that no one is a rock and when you get angry at God it is ok to tell Him because He already knows and it will strengthen your relationship. I know I am writing a lot but I also wanted to share that when Hope was little she got pneumonia 6 times in a year and a half and at the time I was doing a study called Lord is it Warfare. During my study one day the devil himself told me if I quit the study that he will leave Hope alone. I knew right then how important that study was and told him he better leave her alone then and there. Sometimes it is God strengthening us, sometimes it is Satan testing us, but most of the time it is just life and as long as we know that though God doesn't cause everything He does work everything together for our good then we can cope much better.