Day 420

This is another in a stream of seemingly endless rough days. If it's not my nausea controlling me, it's my pain, and if not that my weakness. I don't want this disease to control me. I know God will heal me but until then I don't know what to do.  When I started this blog it was all about hope and faith and it seems when I do devote time to it all I do is fuss so I am going to try to stop looking at the negative in all aspects of life. My sweet husband told me that if I devoted as much time and attention to positive things as I did do negative it would be a world of difference. That is who I used to be trusting, caring, finding the good in every situation. I have been having a very difficult time finding the good when I don't have the strength to put a load of clothes on to wash or stand long enough to wash a few dishes. Sometimes laying here on the couch I don't even have the energy to lift my arms. So what do I have? I have a family who adores me and will sit in here with me to watch movies or shows or just talk. I have a wonderful group of friends who uplift me and so many people that pray for me. I truly am blessed. When God heals me it will be not just for me but for all the world to see His mighty power, grace, and love. There is a reason for this time in our lives and I embrace it with the faith of a child!