Day 419

I am laying here running my IV medication with Elijah set up on the computer doing his spelling lessons. Then we get to read together. I really hope my pain and weakness will subside so I can give him my whole hearted attention. I love having time with him and wish I could make it last forever. Noah left this morning and that was sad. I keep thinking it will get easier but it never does. I already miss my Noah and Krys. Hope is testing this week and if you live in the area I know all of your kids are. I think it's kindof crazy to start testing the day after spring break but that's not my decision to make. 

Even though I shouldn't have to I am going to keep fighting my insurance and fighting to get the care I need. There are specialists in my condition I just can't find them or get them to treat me because their workload is overwhelmed. 

I was thinking about my grandad, Jerry York, today and all the amazing things he did in his life, from fighting in 2 wars to making it his mission to help sick kids and sit up nights praying with strangers over their children. There are so many things he will never be recognized for, but he was so much more than a great, honorable gentleman. He always put others ahead of himself and though he was human and in being so flawed like every one of us, he was truly one of the great ones. I love you and miss you granddaddy! I know while you were here you worried so much about me, but now you can sit and talk with Jesus about His plans for me!