Day 123

I go to Dr. Melton tomorrow. Last night was a very long one but they finally approved my IV fluids and for the first time since I have gone off TPN, I woke up and my mouth wasn't cotton dry. I hope I can get some of this excess weight off because it makes me feel miserable, difficult to breathe, high pulse rate and swollen hands are all driving me mad. I really think that having these fluids will help lessen my pain, migraines, bloating, and other symptoms. It would be great if we can get me off of some of these medications.
I have to say I am so excited for my cousin Misty, she had her baby girl, Jaxyn, 6lb 4oz and she looks just like her momma! I wish I could be there to hold her and visit with Misty, I really miss her because she normally comes up several times a year and we go down there but with me being sick and her being pregnant we haven't seen each other. I miss my family that is in Alabama, I know we were there not too long ago for my baby brothers wedding, but I miss them all. I really miss my newest niece Brooke and her momma and dad. Our family is so tight and close knit. We do everything together, but lately it seems like we have been doing nothing together. My sweet baby boy is a man going off to college. My sweet baby girl is a teenager, which is fun when I feel good enough to do things together like shopping or just hanging out.  Elijah, my baby, the last child I will have is 7 and almost as tall as Hope. I know God has a plan to use my illness and my miraculous healing to change so many peoples lives. He already has used it in so many ways. I am just waiting like in Psalms where it says wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. I don't like to wait, who does? But I put this into Gods hands and I struggling but refusing to take it back because His hands are the only place any of this will work. i know this is short, but i will try to be more consistant.

Lots of Love
And Laughter,
Betsy