My Reason

My sweet Elijah has used every wish, every prayer, every day to ask for my complete healing. I knew in 2008 because God told me when I first started getting really sick that things were going to get much worse but He would heal me only when His timing is right and He receives the glory for my healing. For those of you that do not know, I have Idiopathic Gastroparesis caused by a genetic condition known as Autonomic Dysfunction. I am currently on IV nutrition through a central line and on several medications. I had a gastric pacer implanted in 2010 to alleviate some of my symptoms and it worked well for 6 months but my nerves quit responding and I finally had it removed this January. In other words it did get much worse. I start this blog now because I know God will not let my baby's faith die.

Friday, June 16, 2023

Again

I sit here again, curled up in a ball asking why. Tears stroll down my face as my stomach churns. I'm so hungry, in so so much pain and all I want to do is hide. Asking why again. I thought this was over, done, a part of my past. yet here I sit the pain immeasurable the hunger consuming me the anger burning through me like a ball of fire. Why again. Why now? Yet here I sit again...and as I watched the love of my life read these words I watched him start to break again. He held so strong when everyone was watching before he was the glue the strength our family needed to get us through those wretched day. Does he have what it takes to do it once again?

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