My Reason

My sweet Elijah has used every wish, every prayer, every day to ask for my complete healing. I knew in 2008 because God told me when I first started getting really sick that things were going to get much worse but He would heal me only when His timing is right and He receives the glory for my healing. For those of you that do not know, I have Idiopathic Gastroparesis caused by a genetic condition known as Autonomic Dysfunction. I am currently on IV nutrition through a central line and on several medications. I had a gastric pacer implanted in 2010 to alleviate some of my symptoms and it worked well for 6 months but my nerves quit responding and I finally had it removed this January. In other words it did get much worse. I start this blog now because I know God will not let my baby's faith die.

Sunday, March 29, 2020

What is God going to do today?

This morning the pastor of Foundry, Chad Brooks, spoke about how God provided Manna from Heaven on a daily basis. How he provides our needs each and every day. I want to share with you a personal experience of God's provision and why I am alive today. My illness had gotten much worse. I could not hold down any food and it came to the point that I could not hold down even a sip of water. I knew I needed to go to the doctor. I knew I needed IV fluids. I was in bad shape. The doctor took my blood work and came back to me with a most confounding and frustrating answer. He said, "I am not saying you're lying, but you are eating something you are not telling me about because your blood work doesn't line up with what you are saying. I can see you are a little dry, but I am not going to give you IV Fluids." I went home so angry, knowing my body could not survive without some source of sustenance. Why wouldn't that doctor give me fluids? Within a couple of days I ended up in the emergency room and it took them 37 times of sticking me to find a vein. Severely dehydrated at this point, possibly because I tried to hold down a few sips of water only to throw up way more than I put down, I had to wonder why that doctor who wasn't saying I was lying, was saying I was lying. I knew God has instilled in me the verse Mathew 4:4 "Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God." He did that way before I got so sick. Back when I had my own line of cookies, "Heaven's To Betsy's" Gourmet Cookies. I put that verse on every cookie and tub of cookie dough I sold. So obviously it was drilled in my head. God knew there would come a day when I could have no bread, no water, no food of any kind. That doctor was so perplexed by my blood work, because it was proof of a miracle. One of many to come. God was sustaining me, keeping my body from being without necessary nutrients. Keeping me alive despite what medical science understands. God promises to to supply your every need. The thing is, He will prove it time and time again because He truly is a God of Love. Long before my illness took over our world we went through another extremely difficult time. A business venture we had failed and neither my husband or I could find a job. I thought for sure we would lose everything. But the strangest thing happened. We had more food in our cupboards than we ever had before. Somehow all of our necessities were met at just the right time. I went from waking up worrying, "What are we going to do today?" To waking up smiling and asking God, "What are You going to do today?" During this time of uncertainty, shortages, and isolation we all need to step back, stop worrying and wondering what to do and start expecting looking to God and asking what is He going to do today! 

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