Life is so fragile.

When I was younger my mom looked at me as "Stupid little Betsy" but as she really got to know me she told me what a brilliant, kind, loving, giving person I am. I think some people still see me as stupid little Betsy. They don't bother to include me in the most important aspects of life. It seems like they feel they are the only people with a life, like everything they have going on is so much more important than anything or anyone else. The thing is, we all have a whole lot going on only i have to deal with it through the eyes of my chronic illness. So I do as much as I can as long as I can. I have missed out on some amazing moments in my families lives because of this stupid illness. The illness is stupid, I am not. I assure you, I would not have made a 4.0 going back to school, while pushing through my illness and taking care of all of the important moments. We have had so many milestones. Noah is married to Krystian and they are having their first baby girl. While trying to figure out a grandparent name I was talking ti my Granny and telling her how she was so amazing, so graceful, a solid rock we could all depend on, and she prayed over me and bequeathed the name Granny to me. I am so honored. Noah had his first scientific publication, with his name first as an undergrad, unheard of! He won 2nd place at the symposium. He has been working in the lab since he has been in college and this past year got paid for it. This summer he has a paid internship that he only has to go to 2 days a week and will earn alot of money and all of the projects he is working on get accretided to him. Hope just graduated validictorian plans to go into biology then into genetics. After only three months at Eskamoes, before her first evaluation, she was promoted to manager. generally they don't even consider that until you have been therre a year. She is going to relocate to the store close to school and go in as a manager. Elijah at 10 has figured out how to program computers, has a YouTube channel and is dedicated to making 2 videos a day so he can start to make money off of that. My husband doesn't get enough credit because everyttime someone tells us how brilliant our children are he says, "It's Thanks to their momma." He is so brilliant, amazing, caring, giving-even to his own detriment, loving, and I could go on and on. He has started his business Enviroclenze which is whole home or office water purification, and air a clean as a surgery room. So, yes, our life is hectic too. This weekend we are having a memorial service for my dad Friday and my grandmother Saturday but my stupid disease is really flaring up and I cannot control the pain no matter what. But that doesn't give anyone the right to push me aside and flat out ignore me or worse be so ugly to me. I just wish the rest of my family could be as close knit as Clint and I and our children are. Please pray I make it through this weekend becaues I have no choice.