Day 460

As most of you know I had a 5 hour iron infusion Thursday. Friday I felt alive for the first time in such a long time. I admit I did way too much and our family had an amazing Easter weekend! Not only did we have all our babies, yes even the 19 year old baby, home; but we got to visit so much of our family and I was lucid and well enough to enjoy it. I am feeling pretty wiped out now but it was worth every second soaking up my family! 

I know how easy it is to get negative when you have dealt with so much for so long and I know I have been very down and negative lately. Thank you so much for your prayers not only that I would feel better but that I would stop being negative and enjoy every moment for what it is. My sweet aunt Ann told me I need to get outside and soak up some vitamin D and I made a joke saying I was so fair skinned that I was afraid I would blind people and her graceful response to that was that my fair skin is a sign of roality. She is right about that because I am royal, child of the King of kings and Lord of lords, a child of the most high God! I don't pretend to understand His plan for our lives or how or when He will heal me but I know He has a plan for a future and a hope and He will heal me in His time. Until then I want nothing more than for our family to be at the center of God's will and to give them everything possible in my condition. Time for me to open my mouth with wisdom and on my tongue to be the law of kindness. Those words are much easier said than done especially when you are very ill but I will do the best I can with every day that I have and appreciate you prayer helping to keep me from going negative. I pray for everyone who reads this, whether you are ill, sad, or whatever you need may be, I pray that God will meet you where your needs are.