My Reason

My sweet Elijah has used every wish, every prayer, every day to ask for my complete healing. I knew in 2008 because God told me when I first started getting really sick that things were going to get much worse but He would heal me only when His timing is right and He receives the glory for my healing. For those of you that do not know, I have Idiopathic Gastroparesis caused by a genetic condition known as Autonomic Dysfunction. I am currently on IV nutrition through a central line and on several medications. I had a gastric pacer implanted in 2010 to alleviate some of my symptoms and it worked well for 6 months but my nerves quit responding and I finally had it removed this January. In other words it did get much worse. I start this blog now because I know God will not let my baby's faith die.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Snow day

The weather has been crazy here in Louisiana freezing rain and sleet to huge snowflakes but by Sunday it is supposed to be 70 and raining. Clint and Elijah are so sick with bronchitis, Hope is going to the dr tomorrow because of hip pain. 
I seem to be in a holding pattern with constant nausea and Migraine and I still throw up every single day. I try not to talk too much about how I feel because truly no one wants to hear all about it. When friends or family members get so sick with a stomach virus that they can't even think straight I am tempted to say I know just how they feel 24/7 but I do not because again, who really wants to hear that? I have learned to mask my pain and nausea to an extent but that doesn't mean it's not there. People tell me I look great or I don't look sick and I have no idea what to say to them. I can not wait until the day when God heals me and until then I will keep my head up and wait for The Lord. 
I long to be a voice for all those who are sick and the doctors either don't believe them or simply cannot properly diagnose them. It is so hard when you are fighting for your life and you have to fight for every ounce of care. I have been there and it is exhausting but if I didn't fight I would not still be here and I have known many sweet souls who didn't have the strength to fight for the care they needed and lost their lives from inadequate care. My heart breaks for those who are truly sick and ignored by doctors or put in a mental institution because of inadequacy. I pray for all the people who are sick and have trouble getting a diagnosis, and all the physicians out there to find the diagnosis and the med students to be trained to look harder to find the root of the problem. 

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