Who is God?

I believe what I believe because the Southern Baptist Convention told me... No, I believe what I believe because I know God personally. I try to talk to Him every day, throughout the day. I sit and listen to Him. He taught me how to love, how to fast and pray. He taught me through my cookies that Matthew 4:4 says "Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God." Then through my disease He taught me true hunger, to the point of starvation. Then He taught me to hunger for Him. He showed me a thirst that couldn't be quenched, a thirst complete with dry cracked lips and dry skin. I couldn't tell you how many times I was dehydrated. Then He showed me Living Water that could quench any and all thirst. He showed me such compassion through His creation. Doctors, nurses, friends, family, and even strangers. Then He showed me the cruelty of man, even people who took an oath that were supposed to be there to help me. I want to protect others from that cruelty. Those that cannot protect themselves. He also showed me the #faithofachild. He showed me through my own sweet child what true faith is. Elijah not only gave every prayer and wish that God would heal me, but he also taught all of his friends how important prayer is by asking them all to pray for me. He showed me He is my Jehovah Rapha, My God Who Heals. That to this very day He is the God of miracles and in doing, answered Elijah's and all of his friends prayers! He answered prayers across the world for me. He taught me what true love and devotion is through my amazing husband that He created for me. Clint stood by me through it all with such grace and constantly sang my praises. He put me on a pedestals and adores me to this day. Through Noah, He taught me the first love of a mother and gave me someone else to live for, to never be selfish again. He showed me how He saw me as His child. Noah saved my life so it could truly begin. Now Noah is all grown up, married, and about to have a child of his own. He is a mighty warrior of God. Through Hope, he taught me just that, hope. She was our Hope before she was born, hence her name. From the first time she pointed out her guardian Angels to me, to this very day she inspires me. Elijah still remembers being in Heaven with Jesus, and really remembers being in my tummy. I am so glad I spent the first year of his life mostly holding him, watching him, and loving him, because he didn't get to know the mom I was to Noah and Hope until now. Right now God is teaching me how to be a voice for the voiceless, how to give, how not to give, how to love with Agape, love that asks nothing in return. God is all around us. My Nanny always took us on walks and showed us God in nature. My Granny always showed us God in person. My brother went to be with God too early, and through that God showed us Peace without understanding, sometimes day by day, sometimes hour by hour, and sometimes moment by moment. God is everywhere, just look around, or close your eyes and listen. He wants you to know Him. He created you and this beautiful world you live in. God is Love!

Day 38 after healing!

     Hello everyone, I hope you are having a wonderful weekend. I am sorry it has been so long since I have updated my post. Things have been crazy busy. We are getting ready to homeschool for the new year. Hope is about to head off to college. Our business is finally taking wings and will hopefully be a smashing success. I have been so weak, trying hard to get my strength back, but many years of being too sick to do much of anything is not so simple to snap back from. The good news is that each and every day is new proof that I am a living breathing miracle! I am eating new things every day with no problem. I was going to way a while before trying any raw vegetables or leafy greens because from the beginning, that was the first thing to go. Yesterday I ate raw spinach and tomatoes and they were so yummy and didn't give me any problems. I have always been a big time foodie, loved food. But because of my gastroparesis, I couldn't eat anything. After yesterday, nothing's off the table and I am so excited!
      We have a very busy day today of shopping, getting our school room ready, and a birthday party so I suppose I should get to it. I will try to do better to keep everyone up to date and I will post dates and locations on here of when I go share my testimony so everyone who wants to be there can. If you would like me to come and speak just leave me your info and I will contact you ASAP! Thanks so much and I continue to pray for all of you and will work hard to be a voice for those of you too weak to speak up for yourselves! This is Day 38 after my healing!

15 days after healing

     I am doing so good and just loving life! My eating is back to normal. I was able to eat a burger at my uncle Jim's on the 4th and it was probably the best burger I have had. The Fourth of July means a whole lot to many Americans, but to my family, it means so much more. It was the day my Grandad married my Granny and started this whole crazy York clan. Our lives have always been blessed, even through all the illness and other issues because we have always been bathed in prayer. My mom's family is pretty amazing too. I am sure she doesn't want me to say anything about this and I hope she doesn't mind, but when my Nanny's dementia got bad, my aunt Ann took her in, and when she got worse, Ann would care for Nanny saying it is better to have a loving hand than a caring hand. I spent much of my summers growing up at my aunt Ann's with my cousin Teri.She probably knows more about me than I know about myself.  In fact, I was named after her and my dad's sister Ann. She is one very special lady too. I always thought she was the most beautiful person in the world. She has always been so good and so sweet to me. I spent many a night at her house as well. But for my parents, who likely already knew how unique I was, chose Anne, and so I became Betsy Anne.
     It will take a while to get my energy to a normal level. I have been sick and mostly laying down for the last 10 years. The amazing inner strength I gained from my healing needs help with rebuilding my muscles. So I will take it slow, or I will over do it and then rest a while. Either way slow and steady wins the race. I will indeed try and keep up and I hope you will continue to follow me! May God bless you and your family!

Clarification

Let me start by saying I am so blessed and so full of Joy. I said some things on day 4 after healing about several different people. Different instances and situations that saddened me because there are people who will never understand the Love of God. But I should not have let those words ever be posted. My sister, who has taken me into her home and though she lives so very far away has always wanted the best for me feels like everything I wrote was about her. She knows the Love of God intimatly and has personified it to our family. I am healed but being heavily medicated and without sleep is not a good time to post anything. I deeply apologize if I have upset people or hurt anyone. That was never my intentions.