Day 560

I want to write about a very strange but very real dream I had the other night. I wasn't in it except as a witness. There were two couples who vacationed together every year and while they were on vacation before they went to bed for the evening they would gather together in prayer and immediately after the prayer one of the husbands said he had a announcement to make and you could see his wife well up with tears. The man finally got the words out, "you know I have been batteling  throat cancer for a long time now, but God has healed me. The doctors can't explain it other than it is a true miricle." I woke up with a sore throat and just remember thanking God for healing that man, over and over. 

I know of so many young people with my condition along with other complications that don't survive this every year, and I know God is going to heal me, but I can't help but wonder why I will be healed when all these sweet lovely young people are not healed. I know every breath I take is God's grace alone and I hope and pray that they can use the study I was in to find a cure for this wretched disease. I really want to make a difference in people's lives. I never want to take for granted all the blessings God gives our family each and every day. I know from studying the Bible that He uses those who are weak so there is no doubt that God gets all the glory. I am weak and even though I don't know how right now, I do know He will use me to help people in my situation or worse situatuations. Forgive me if I use this forum to rant sometimes but I am only human and I do get scared and angry and weary and sometimes I have such strong hunger pains but know if I eat it is just going to make me even more sick. I hope if you read this blog it will be a blessing to you and I pray for every soul that reads this blog that God would meet you where your needs are and bless you abundantly.